Commitment

There are some of us who have a never-commit syndrome. No matter what happens we would never commit to anything. We come up with new and effective excuses and always slip out through the back door when commitment is required. We are a little manipulative. Then there are some of us who take a lot of time to make a small commitment. We are usually calculative and cautious and perhaps wise too. We never give our word easily and if given well then we live by it. And then there are some of us who are over committed. Anything that happens near us, around us or even in our vicinity is our responsibility. We work ourselves up over minute detail and in the process work everyone around us up as well! We pursue perfection, which is an elusive goal in the disguise of doing our best. But all said and done we stand out for excellence.

Anyone out there feel like you connect?

Well, whatever category we fall into, I am realizing that adulthood is a lot about commitment. And if we do not strike a balance then our lives can be pretty messy. There are times when we need to slip out of commitment, there are times when we need to think it over and there are times we need to give it our all. And knowing which to do when is what you learn, keep learning as an adult! ;)

Dear Mister God, this is @ina talking . . . Could really use your help on this!

My Quote on Giving

I've been thinking -

Giving ain't *give-ing* until it pinches your own pocket.

Know what I mean? ....

I was extremely proud of myself today for a certain action which I decided was quite selfless of me. I patted my shoulder and said to myself "You are doing swell!". I even flattered my head into think I must be quite a giving person to be able to do what I did..... well, all this until I met another friend in need in the same day. Now this favour actually meant I needed to make some *real* sacrifices. And guess what? I was not too happy... & Bam! all that selflessness that I thought I saw in me was gone!!!
....But it was good while it lasted! ;)

Anyways, I realized what the parable about the woman who gave her two coins when that was all she had as oppose to the rich man who gave a tenth of his riches suddenly came to life and I realized giving, and I mean *real* giving ain't easy but makes you smile when you do it anyway even if it hurts a lil! :)

Dear Mister God, this is @ina talking . . . Makes me wonder how much have I ever really given.... :?

Through the Doting Eyes of My Dad

This morn I was dressed up in our traditional costume, for a special occasion I had to go to. As I stepped out to leave Dad looked at me, his eyes full of love and admiration for me, his daughter. I was kinda zapped in that moment and realized that Dad’s way of looking at me was whole lot different from my own view of myself or that of anyone else. Perhaps this is a father daughter thing or then again perhaps this is a parent child thing, but whatever it is this morning looking into my dad’s eyes I realized this: In His eyes I am the most precious, unique, special, smart, and beautiful thing on earth.

:) Yep! If only I could always see myself through his eyes! :)

Dear Mister God, this is @ina talking . . . Looking into Dad’s eyes felt like a glimpse into your heart for me.